Recognise the bad stuff.... and move on

Wow – an interesting last couple of days. I signed up as a Film and TV Extra. I am a major movie buff, so I thought it would be fun, and earn me some handy cash while I’m still setting up my business. Obviously, getting married puts some financial pressure on too!

I got a two day job for a gambling commercial, getting to fly in a harness! The bad news was getting up at 5am to get to set on time. It really wasn’t a good environment for me. Bad food, people who are either too busy to be polite, or people who are not really living their dreams. Harsh, but some of the most complaining people ever – lots of the “shoulda, woulda, coulda”. 

That’s a really toxic environment for me, because I recognise that I can be influenced by negative people. I don’t need any excuse to have a complain, especially when we found out that we weren’t getting paid overtime (and yesterday’s shoot went 5.5 hours overtime). Getting up at 5am and then bed at 1am to do it the next day is really not great for my body and mind either. (see pic!)

My attitude has been terrible the last two days. Running through my head was:

Resentment….. “I’ve been ripped off”………”I’m never paid what I’m worth”…..

Beating myself up ……. “I always get myself in these situations…”

Feeling trapped…………. ”I can’t believe I have to come back tomorrow… I have no choice…..”

Feeling poor…..”I never have enough money”….I’m going to run out of money soon”…

It’s good to recognise these thoughts and move on. So being an extra is not for me. Good to know, let’s move on to the next thing. One that serves me, my goals and my higher purpose. 

What's this got to do with Raw Food?

Raw food for me isn't about the food. It's about nourishing myself, being authentic and discovering my true passion in life. What I put in my mouth is just one part of that.

Since I discovered raw, my tolerance for toxic situations, people and food is being tested constantly. It's sometimes extremely confusing and painful, because I like life to be easy going. I like to know where I stand. 

I believe in the Law of Attraction, so it's really quite shocking to write down what I was saying to myself. It's no coincidence that as I was putting those toxic thoughts into my brain, I was also feeding my body with all sorts of crap food from the set. I want to be more aware my thoughts, so even if I do "slip up", then I don't let it descend into the "My life is terrible, and I'm a terrible person" tirade of self punishment.

The lovely Blanka sent me these words.....

"We want to eat raw to feel good about ourselves, not to feel bad when we don't"

That's a brilliant reminder that it's not about the food. It's about my life and happiness.

Meditation from Louise Hay's book, You Can Heal Your Life

I am willing to change. 

I choose to react as though I have found a treasure when I discover something else to release. 

I see and feel myself changing moment by moment.

Thoughts no longer have any power over me.

I am the power in my world. I choose to be free.

All is well in my world.

Comments

[Blanka]

Oh Denise, this is an amazing post. So true!! Reading the words from Louise Hay made me shiver, especially the last line: All is well in my world. That is a very powerful thought. Thank you for it!
Blanka